Thursday, October 30, 2008

The Rules:
1. Link to the person who tagged you

2. Post the rules on your blog (this is what you are now reading).

3. Write 6 random things about yourself (see below).

4. Tag 6 people at the end of your post and link to them.

5. Let each person know they have been tagged and leave a comment on their blog.

6. Let the tagger know when your entry is up.Ok. Now that we have THAT out of the way...
The Random:

1. I am cluless when it comes to this tag stuff. I do not even know how to link someone.

2. I cannot wait to go trick or treating tomorrow.

3. I LOVE animals and am going to school to become a vet technician.

4. I am so homesick and cannot wait to see family.

5. I HAVE to have coffee in the mornings w/two sweat-n-low and cream.

6. I wish I could play lead guitar in a rock band.

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

life is good

School right now is so boring. It is all about computer crap. Ugh! I have a huge 3 inch book that I have to read and take 2 test on. NOT looking forward to this. Otherwise, all is great. Faced some things (people) I needed to face and got some things done the right way finally (at work). You just cannot sit back and let people run all over you. You have to stand up for yourself, and what you want. I am finally doing just that, and realizing I have support from those I did not even expect it from.

The girls are doing awesome in school. They have GREAT teachers and schedules. Brittani is loving choir and plans to try out for the volleyball team. Brianna LOVES her teachers. She and I had a date night Friday and had the best time. She shared w/me the different personalities of each teacher and one of them is quite a character. Her impersonation of him gave us both a good laugh. We have all been watching the Olympics and she is thinking about getting back onto the swim team. Her coach had said last year that he wanted to try to get her to the 2012 Olympics and she just was not interested, I think now she is. She has been swimming laps on her own in our pool.

This Friday will 16 years that Santos and I have been married, life is good.

Sunday, July 27, 2008

1. I've come to realize that my boobs are perfect.
2. I've come to realize that my job is worth doing, I just got a $1 raise.
3. I've come to realize that when I'm driving, I could be praying for the ones I love.
4. I've come to realize that I need a daily balance of, GOD, rest, healthy food, exercise, friends and family.
5. I've come to realize that I have lost the desire to be "somewhere" else.
6. I've come to realize that I hate it when people bitch and complain. Get over it.
7. I've come to realize that if I'm drunk... none of your bees wax........
8. I've come to realize that money is going to only get me so far.
9. I've come to realize that certain people do have what it takes, maybe they are not fakes.
10. I've come to realize that I'll always be married to my one true love.
12. I've come to realize that my mom is human.
13. I've come to realize my cell phone needs nothing, I hardly use it, i hate talking on the phone. I am on the dang thing all day at work.
14. I've come to realize that when I woke up this morning, we were going to praise God at church, could not wait to get there.
15. I've come to realize that last night before I went to sleep, I have a very blessed life.
16. I've come to realize that right now I am thinking about being better all the way to the end.
17. I've come to realize that my dad might be lonely right now.
18. I've come to realize that when I get on the computer, I go straight to school, I have class at 6:00 tonight.
19. I've come to realize that today marks a new beginning, everyday is a new beginning.
20. I've come to realize that tonight I cannot wait to have the leftovers from last night.
21. I've come to realize that tomorrow is Monday, so.
22. I've come to realize that I really want to be a Veterinarian Technician, I love animals and making a difference.
24. I've come to realize that life is GREAT.
25. I've come to realize that this weekend was spent w/my best friend.
26. I've come to realize that the best music to listen to when I am upset hmm, I tend to need peace and quiet when I am upset.
27.Ive come to realize that friends do make the world go around.
28. I've come to realize that this year, I am determined to get time off from work to spend time w/family for the holidays.

Monday, April 28, 2008

Dear God

Thank you for this gorgeous day you have given me the day off to enjoy. God, I ask that you help me to spend my time wisely each and every minute today. Help me to get the "little" things done that end up making a BIG difference. Help me to "see" the little things and not miss those opportunities. Please be with my girls, help them to feel better. Lift Brittani from this fog. Help Santos and I be a guiding light to you through this wilderness of life.

Thank you for all that you have done for us this past week. Thank you for the time of prayer our family has spent together. Please do not let us fall from spending time with you.

Santos-I love your strength
Brittani-stay strong
Brianna-yes, you are going to camp

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

36

I cannot believe I am 36 years old. Wow!! My birthday was awesome. I do not feel like I am 36. This is sooo close to 40. I have not had a problem with any other age until now. 36............

Tuesday, March 04, 2008

LIFE IS GOOD

God is an awesome God. Brittani went to Winterfest in Gatlenberg TN. (youth retreat) a few weekends ago and LOVED it. She told her daddy and I that she wanted to be baptized. So the following Sunday she was baptized into Christ. She loves the youth group. I thank God for the awesome kids that are older than her who have taken her under their wing and are transforming her into such a spiritual young lady.

My niece is flying in for Spring Break in a few weeks and I cannot wait to see her. She cracks me up with her HIGH spirits and pranks she loves to pull on me. Brittani and Brianna are both really looking forward to our spring break with her. We are HOPING it will warm up real nice a hot for them to be able to swim. However; with it snowing right this very minute outside, I will not be holding my breath.

I am apart of an awesome small group at church. We meet every Sunday night and talk. It is nice to beable to ask the many questions that I have about many things. It is so nice to be apart of such a warm and loving group. I am excited about my spiritual walk right now.

Work is going great for both Santos and I. I love where I work. I love the people and the animals. I am reading two great books. I am apart of an awesome book-club (the Dr. and co-workers from work). We get together and meet once a month having lunch, or meet at Docs house for drinks and snacks. Then, if or when the movie comes out we get together at the theater and watch the movie.

Spring is around the corner and I cannot wait. I love opening all the windows and letting the house air out after winter hibernation.

Tuesday, January 01, 2008

2008

I am awake today with high hopes for this new year. I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength.

Monday, December 31, 2007

180

That is my current weight . I have never weighed this much before. I cannot fit into any of my clothes. I have one pair of jeans and a few sweatshirts. Thank goodness we have to wear scrubs at work, or I would be up a creek. So, of course with the new year blah, blah, blah, everyone usually goes on diets and start to work out. I started today. I don't want it to be just because of a new year, but because I NEED TO. So, yesterday I shopped for "healthy" foods. We are trying to go by the South Beach "plan". I will not use the other four letter word cause then I am sure to fail. I am saying "we" cause it is going to have to be a lifestyle change for all of us. We went for a walk this afternoon through a gorgeous area around our house, rolling hills (great going down hill...even better going up :). It felt great. I have had four glasses of water so far. Turkey bacon and some eggs. And had 20 pistachios.

We all have goals of wanting to be a better person, a better lots of things. Tomorrow is a new day, a new year, and a new chance for lots of better things.

Make a decision and DO IT.

Sunday, December 02, 2007

Tis The Season To Be.....BUISY




Last Monday Brittani was presented as "Homecoming Queen" at her middle school. The night could not have been more perfect. My dear friend Amy informed me that as soon as Brittani got out of school at 2:15 that we were going to taker her to the spa to have her makeup, hair and nails done by one of her good friends and stylist. I said, "great" does that mean she will give me a break on the cost, Amy said, "what cost, it is on me"!! And on top of that she GAVE Brittani 7 formal dresses from when she was in pageants. Gotta love your friends. THANK YOU AMY!!!! Brittani is not a "girly-girl", like her momma. So when it came to wearing heels, it just was not happening, so she wore her VANS. Yes, it rocked. Her black and white VANS with a black formal....the crowd LOVED IT.




Wednesday, October 17, 2007

Fall Break

My dad is here. He drove here from Kansas. I am so happy to see him. He is so kind, and loving. We went out to eat for dinner and afterwards he asked "can we go to the park?" Why of course we can....so off we went. I have to brag, that here in Tn. our parks are gorgeous. It was awesome watching him swing with the girls, throw rocks in the pond, race across the monkey bars. He loves his granddaughters so much.

Tomorrow we leave for Texas. We are going to see Santos parents for Fall Break. Cannot wait. His parents live out in the middle of no where on some land. It will be so nice and quiet. Not having to cook, his mom is the best of course at Mexican anything you want......yummm. Riding four wheelers and go-carts till dusk, then sit around a big pit fire roasting marshmallows. Sleeping in till I smell the bacon, eggs, re-fried beans, tortillas...coffee......CAN'T WAIT! :)

Wednesday, August 01, 2007

Picture Fun

Sampson and Brittani
Sarah and Sampson

Baby Girl



My lovely grill...I mean girl.



Dani and Brit





My lovely fire ball Brianna




Sampson






The lake.



























SUMMER FUN!!!!









Thursday, October 05, 2006

To be or not to be.......

My profile "about me" explains that I want to be true to those around me. I am on that path now. I have not been entirely true to myself. I knew the truth, but was afraid to tell the truth. That I have not been happy for some time in my marriage. It is a very long story that takes us 15 years back, so I will not bore you.

I divorced myself from my heart many years ago, and made sure that it was covered completely with strong concrete so that nothing could get to it. My heart would be safe. I would be safe. It could still function. It could still beat, the concrete was stable enough for people to walk on, it could support up to so much weight on a daily basis. It would allow my girls to write on the concrete, play hopscotch. My heart inside loved to hear their voices, to know that they were close, but not touching. The concrete was strong enough for my husband to drive over it, peel out leaving marks of black tar, to do donuts for the heck of it, to get out and drop trash on.

My heart had been longing for something under this dark, but safe shield. Over time cracks began to appear, and some light would come through. My heart could feel the small bit of warm sunlight filtering through. It began to soften, and when the girls would come out to play, it longed to play too.

My heart has broken through the concrete and is ready to face the wind, the rain, the hail. My heart wants to reach out to others, to put a smile on a face that has had a frown for too long.

To be or not to be, that has been my question. I am ready to be.
to be:
free
happy
loved
loving
caring
supportive
leading
adventurous
honest
loyal
open
a friend
prayerful
faithful
obedient
a follower of God daily
to just be.......ME!

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

A new journey.....

I will begin a new and scary journey in my life starting yesterday. I informed my husband that it was time to cal it quits. We have tried for 14 years to make our marriage work, and it is not going to happen. This is so hard. I have family I am going home to and staying with until I can get a place for me and the girls. I think I have a place I can work. I leave Sunday. I do not know the first thing about Divorce. My parents are still together. Do I find a lawyer. God this sucks.

Monday, August 21, 2006

Assignment

I have been told to write about my "remarkable" life. My life. Is it remarkable? Well, to have my family in good health is great. My dog letting a god awful fart is not so remarkable, but he is in my life and I love him. He loves me. Oh, he is really smelling up this room right now. Okay, my life..........

I rise out of bed at 7:15 and am out the door by 7:45 taking my youngest all the freakin way across town to ghetto school, then all the way back to work and am always late. I have been written up so I am on thin line right now. But, I hate, where I work, so what do i care? I care cuz we just put a pool in our backyard and I need a job. So, I pray that I can just get by again and promise myself to get my lazy but out of bed on time tomorrow.

Work is very demanding, all take and no fun. I have friends that keep me there, keep me sane, laugh at me cuz I am the rebel wearing tennishoes of Fridays when we have a rule not to. I put a copy of the companies "personal phone call policies" on someones desk today cuz she is on the phone all freakin day freakin lookin for another job. And we hear from the Manager, well, she has to take care of, oh bs lady, she is looking for another job right under your nose, or talking to her sistas.

Hubby is calling.....it is make-out time....NNNOOOTTTTTTTTTTTTTT.
Tune in tomorrow to see how the talker reacted to the copy of the rules.......

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

Giddy

That is what I have been all day. I have been preparing for my seester and her kids arrival to our home. I cannot wait. So much to do and time just will not stand still for me to do all I need to do.

It has been awhile since I have landed here. PROJECTS is now a four letter word in this house. I am tired of them. T.I.R.E.D!!! Master bedroom is painted. Master bath is painted. All of upstairs is recarpeted. And yes............POOL IS IN THE GROUND AND COMPLETE!!!!

Pictures soon.

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

WORDS FROM A FRIEND

Integrity always matters.
Integrity is simply doing what you promised you would do. It is telling the truth and doing the truth. It is doing the right thing even if no one would know that you did the wrong thing. Integrity is accepting the blame when you have made a mistake. Integrity always matters because it matters to God. Integrity keeps you the kind of person you want to live with. And that's important because you have to live with yourself your entire life.

More money will not fix everything. Until you know how to handle a small amount of money well, lots of money will only create bigger problems. Remember to never keep it all (give some away) and never spend it all (save some for the future). Then you will never be broke.
Save early, save often. There exists in the universe a simple principle with a big payoff. It is called compounding interest. When you place money in a savings account, you earn interest. Then that interest earns interest, or compounds, which makes your money grow much more rapidly. Start saving money now so it has many years to compound. That is the no-brainer way to build wealth.

A sense of humor is a valuable asset. Laugh at yourself and you'll never run out of material. Laugh with others. Some people can't see the humor in their situations, so just make sure they are laughing first or you could hurt their feelings. Laugh often. Laughter is good for your health because it releases tension and stress. It can make your life much more enjoyable.

There's a difference between authority and responsibility. Authority usually refers to your power over people. People who crave authority usually lose it. Responsibility usually refers to your pledge to people. Those willing to assume responsibility usually get it. Most people crave authority and avoid responsibility. You've got a great sense of responsibility. I applaud it. I admire it. Don't ever lose it.

A little encouragement goes a long way. Maybe it's only a few words or a small act of kindness, but that small effort can really encourage another person. It might not seem like much to you, but it can be meaningful to that other person. Whenever you encourage others, you are showing that you have care and concern for them. Encouragement is something that's hard to give away because it always comes back to bless you.

Saturday, May 13, 2006

Projects.............

Santos and I built this TODAY for our kittnes, Bailey and Sarah. We had looked at play lands for cats at different stores and they are just stupid expensive. This cost us nothing to build. It was all stuff we had around here, or that I was able to get from Lowes (for free), the tubing we used to wrap the carpet around is what Lowe's carpet rolls come on. So I asked the guy if they had a tube that had no more carpet and sure enough they did. It is a really thick cardboard so, there you havit it. The kitties LOVE.LOVE.LOVE.IT!!!!!


Here I am highlighting Brittani's hair.....

These next pictures are of the game/coffee/fun room. This room did have carpet in it, we pulled it a laid the flooring ourselves, painted, and put up boarder. We are in the process of looking for the perfect pool talbe and bar tables and charis.




There once was a wall where these French doors are now hanging. We knocked the wall out and put these in. I am now in the process of putting the second coat of paint on the doors.








These are before, during and after of Brits room.....

Thursday, May 04, 2006

Spiritual Amnesia

Light The FireBill Maxwell
Verse 1:

I stand to praise You,
But I fall to my knees.
My spirit is hungry,
But my flesh is so weak___.

Chorus:

Light the fire (echo)
In my soul,
(in my weary soul)
Fan the flame, (echo)
Make me whole.
(make my spirit whole)
Lord, You know (echo)
Where I've been,
(where I've been)
So light the fire in my heart again.

Verse 2:
I feel Your arms around me,
As the power of Your healing begins.
You breathe new life right through me,
Like a mighty rushing wind___.


So light the fire in my heart again,
light the fire in my heart again,
light the fire in my heart again.

This song is how I feel tonight. The devil wants to disconnect us from our hearts and from the heart of God. It is what he had to do to bear the loss of heaven. I have just felt empty for a very long, long time, like spiritual amnesia.

I have felt unworthy of Gods love, but this is only because of the whispers of Satan. Gods love for me began w/the laughter of the Trinity. And what God wants from me is my laughter, my tears, my dreams, my fears. I have never been wanted for my heart, my truest self, not really not for long. The thought that God wants my heart seems to good to be true.

I know now more than I have before how much God truly loves me. And I want to connect w/the heart that God desired me to have from the day he breathed life into me. Pure, unselfish, forgiving, loving, patient. I feel the fire now, but how easy it is for the flame to be blown out in my daily life of chores and errands, a busyness that separates me from God and others, even from my own desire to find a match to light it again.

Dear God, please help me to not listen to Satans whispers. Make me take the time to find that match as I go about my chores, errands............

Monday, April 24, 2006

I once was lost

but now I'm found. We went to church yesterday for the first time in about eight months. When we moved here almost a year ago, we were excited and searching for a church home. We had looked up the different churches in the area and started our quest for a home congregation right away. After several months of visiting we became very much disappointed in not being able to find just what it was we were looking for....comfort, welcome, love, family, until yesterday.

We have found the congregation we would like to be apart of. One with open arms. One that is not afraid to let emotions flow from the pulpit. One that gathers around a brother who is so weary and tired from the life trials and tribulations he has been dealt with. One where, you can just "feel" the Lord at work.

Thank you God, for answering my prayer.

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

O Good Golly Miss Molly

I am up to my eyeballs w/projects and raising six; two of them have two legs the rest have four and they all six have become a huge load on my shoulders. My list of crap:

1. finish painting the girls rooms
2. put up cool boarders for the rooms
3. find and order carpet for upstairs
4. find and order hard wood for dining area
5. find and purchase two black bar tables and chairs for coffee room
6. find and purchase wood blinds for whole house
7. plant the rest of my mums in landscaping
8. find paint color for master bedroom and bath
9. paint master bedroom and bath
10. pet dog
11. take girls shopping
12. pet other dog
13. tell bri I do not know where her kittens are
14. laundry
15. dinner
16. got a promotion, so I am stressed now having 50% more work load
17. yell for Bri to do dishes
18. get cat food when taking girls shopping
19. take pictures of finished projects
20. scrap
21. love on honey
22. pee
23. answer door
24. clean out all clothes that do not fit me due to gaining so much weight
25. shop at Targe for new clothes that do fit
26. make sure Brit and Bri were accepted into the Magnet schools
27. figure out what the smell in my van is
28. pick up comforter from cleaners
29. play w/kitties
30. answer emails
31. write my brothers back
32. get secret pal a gift
33. tan
34. Brit to the Orthodontist
35. Parent Swim team meeting
36. Brianna play at school

dear God, please.........
.........

Wednesday, April 05, 2006

NIGHT OF TERROR

Sunday 4/2/06 was one of the most devastating nights for those of us in the Tn. area. It started out such a gorgeous sunny day. A day for planting 30 mums in the landscaping, for trimming trees, swinging on the back deck, taking a run w/the dog, it was just beautiful and warm. As the sun started to go down we could all see the dark, ominous clouds building over our homes. You could feel the weight, the eary creepy crawly feeling of the build of energy overhead. We knew, something was coming. We continued on, all neighbors going indoors for the night. Children from across the street saying goodbyes to the girls. Dogs inside. Garage shut for the night.

Sit to have dinner, turn on the tube.....and beep, beep, beep, this is a weather update, storms are building up from the west in Ak. and heading our way at speeds of 45 miles and hour with wind gust up to 100 and baseball size hale. Oh, wait, I have a new update, ok, listen up folks, a tornado is on the ground in Corothersville Ar. and heading toward Dyer county. People in Dyer county take precaution. If you can hear my voice at this time, please take cover immediately...........

Wow, that is pretty close to home. Beep, beep, beep....and so on and so on for about six hours. Tornados were 13 miles North of us, and 10 miles South of us. Sirens were going off for three hours. If you live on this street, Oh no, that is where Betty lives, if you live on this street it is heading your way, Oh my that is where Steph lives. In was an insane, scary, tragic night. In all 24 people were killed. A family of four were 100 yards thrown from their home. A Grandma and Grandpa were watching their young baby grandchild all three killed and so on and so on. Awful, and way to close. It was one of the longest nights of our lives.

More are heading our way Friday. Please keep all of West Tn. in your prayers.

If you would like to see coverage
www.jacksonsun.com

Tuesday, April 04, 2006

OUT OF HIDING

Where do I begin? The past month and a half has been full of many things.

February 14th my husband surprised me with a gorgeous diamond ring.

March 10th had a fabulous birthday weekend in Memphis. Received a huge gift bag from my secret pal at work, it had everything I love and collect, from candles, mugs, lotions, bubble bath, bath slats, berts bees lip stick, wind chime, giraffes, bamboo plant, pens for scrapbooking, Martina McBride CD, journal, friendship book, jolly ranchers, Extra apple gum, picture frames. It was overwhelming. I love this secret pal thing, I love giving to my secret pal. It is is b-day this Friday and I cannot wait. I received a gift box from my sister that had the coolest signs for my coffee room. By the way I WILL have pictures soon I promise, oh yeah, I got the camera I have been wanting for my b-day, so no more excuses on the picture taking.
This same weekend in Memphis was a huge swim meet for the girls.



March 17th had my tonsils removed and had my uvula trimmed. For a week it was living hell on earth. I would rather go through childbirth than that again. I could not swallow ANYTHING! It took all I could to take the pain pill w/a sip of water and be knocked out. But that is all I wanted was to be OUT!! The next week it was soup and hot chocolate and ice. So, want to lose weight, have a tonsilectomy. Good news......I DO NOT SNORE ANYMORE!!! I wake up now feeling like I have actually slept. It is awesome.

The second week of recovery I worked on a scrapbook for my soon to be 13 yr. old. It is turning out great. (Um, Stacy, where can I buy a white pen that writes on black paper?)

March 28th Briannas b-day. She has wanted a kitten for about 6 months so we finally went to the humane society and they had two long haired kittens that are sisters, so of course we could not separate them and ended up getting both....Bailey and Sara. The CUTEST kittens. I DO have pictures and if I can figure out how to load the pictures, I will.




mng n (from Bailey running on keyboard)

The one on the left is Bailey (Briannas) and the one on the right is Sara (Brittani's)



March 29th Brittani got braces. She is doing great. She only has the top ones for now so that her over bite is corrected.

Had a great past month.

Sunday, February 12, 2006

WINTER WONDER LAND.......



Sampson our Boxer
Brit and Bri pose w/Mr. Snowman....



Santos checking mail and later rolling snowball for the snowman body........






Front of our house........


Mr. Snowman that we built......



Yeah.............it snowed. We had heard all week that snow was on the way....heard that before....believe it when we see it.........see it we did. It is so beautiful. We had a blast having snowball fights, making snowangels and sledding.

Thursday, February 09, 2006

***Your Five Factor Personality Profile***
Extroversion:
You have low extroversion. You are quiet and reserved in most social situations.A low key, laid back lifestyle is important to you.You tend to bond slowly, over time, with one or two people.
Conscientiousness:
You have medium conscientiousness.You're generally good at balancing work and play.When you need to buckle down, you can usually get tasks done.But you've been known to goof off when you know you can get away with it.
Agreeableness:
You have medium agreeableness.You're generally a friendly and trusting person.But you also have a healthy dose of cynicism.You get along well with others, as long as they play fair.
Neuroticism:
You have medium neuroticism.You're generally cool and collected, but sometimes you do panic.Little worries or problems can consume you, draining your energy.Your life is pretty smooth, but there's a few emotional bumps you'd like to get rid of.
Openness to experience:
Your openness to new experiences is low.You're a pretty conservative person, and you favor what's socially acceptable.You think that change for novelty's sake is a very bad idea.While some may see this as boring, many see you as dependable and wise.
The Five Factor Personality Testhttp://www.blogthings.com/thefivefactorpersonalitytest/

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

Changes........

Changes are happening in my life, for the better. I am taking care of the things that I need to get sorted in my life. I am doing alot of reading and soul searching right now, so I do not have much time for blogging. I just ask that you keep my family and I in your prayers.

Tuesday, January 31, 2006

Reading..............

I have been reading off and on when I can, usually at the end of the day when all the dishes are done, laundry put away, doggies fed and walked, girls in bed and hubbie snoring next to me. I am enjoying the Sacred Romance, I like the way John writes more than the way Brent writes.

Brittani has a huge three day swim meet this weekend in AL. This means a lot of "camping" while we wait for each of her events, so I look forward to finishing the book this weekend.

Wednesday, January 25, 2006

DIVORCE

"We divorce ourselves from our heart and begin to live a double life."
from: The Sacred Romance written by: John Eldride
A friend of mine recommended that I read this book. Last night I bought it. I look forward to sharing my journey as I go in search of my heart.

Monday, January 23, 2006

Fighting Gloves Are On

I could not hide it this time. My husband could see. He asked over and over Saturday what was wrong, and over and over I said, "nothing, I'm fine". Finally, I caved. Tears flowing, I unfolded painful and uncomfortable truths of my childhood. I told him I just want to run away, away from you, from the girls and the past. He said to me, with love and sincerity, "you do what you need to do, but my gloves are on, and I am fighting for you."

After another hour of talking, I know what it is I have to do. I have to look at myself, the whole me and the many complex factors that have contributed to who I am today. I have to go through an unfolding process to uncover experiences from my past that have been brought to the surface and to the surface of those I love. This will allow present circumstances to be understood and dealt with in a different way. My husband said, "this is no longer your burden to carry, it is OUR burden.

I felt like the world had been lifted from my shoulders. I could see him. It is hard to explain. I woke the next morning, and I WANTED to get up. I could SEE the dresser, the bed, our room, our house, our children. The fog is not there anymore. I can see. I can see. I love my husband more than the day we were married. He does not see me as I was afraid he would after all was told. He loves me and his gloves are on.

Dear God........thank you!

Sunday, January 22, 2006

and the truth shall set you free...............